Today started off pretty great. I woke up with a smile on my face, put some money in the bank, spent some money even though I'm trying my best to save it all up, and worked a six hour closing shift, which was alright. I was pretty silly and energetic the first three hours or so, but once the night began to creep up on me, my mood seemed to change slowly. The negatives of today did not necessarily trump the positives, but they annoyed me to a particular extent. An old lady ate my last piece of pizza from the night before, I had woken up later than I had wanted to, I ended up getting a different ride back to my friend's house after work, so I wasn't able to talk with my roommate after we both got out of work. I don't know. I think I'm doing the thing that I know I do - I am looking for things to stress or be pissed about, because that's just what I'm used to. But right now, things are good... And it's freaking weird. I am going back to my hometown this upcoming Wednesday, and hopefully things go smoothly. It worries that I am going to be there for a whole month... Last time I was there for a week, shit went south real quick. So, I am staying away from things that I know are going to bring me down as best I can, and try my best to stay busy and positive. My current work position does not look too promising, just because they basically need to rehire me when I get back into town, which kinda blows. The first time they processed the back ground check it took about two weeks, and I'm only going to be home for about a month, so... That doesn't even sound worth the stress. But, I sincerely do not want to sit around not working if I have the complete opportunity to do so, even if it is going to be a stress factor, for more than the given reasons above. I have a nice life out here at school, but I have family back home I need to see. My nephews, my aunts, my godmother, grandparents, I miss all of them and I'd love to see them all... But I'd rather spend my time sitting inside the cemetery talking to the only stone I've been dying to see...and absolutely no pun intended. I really don't have much to say today, I just want to listen to music & end this day to start the next one. I am just learning more about myself; I cannot seem to relax, even when I am handed a break.
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