All of my life I feel as though I have lived either a double life, or always found conflict in placing myself whether it be somewhere like school, or as an individual. I am somebody who fluctuates. If you know me at all, my opinions sway like the wind, my mind changes like clockwork, and if you sit and wait a little while, I bet my mood will change too. But from an individualistic approach, I feel it is because I try and balance all of these personas into one person, and I need to fully accept it is never going to coincide the way I would like it to. If you are confused, let me try to explain some more. I am a student while I am at school, who also works, currently three jobs. As an employee alone, I need to be an IT help support person, a deli clerk, and front end assistant working with little children, teenagers, mothers, fathers, and grandparents - those are very different areas of service. I understand they all hold the same basic principles, those are still separate portions of myself & my work ethic. Ever since an early age, I had difficulties dealing with the double life I lead with my parents. At some point in my childhood, I needed to start seeing my father through court advised visits; which meant the way I acted around my father when I saw him only twice a week, was clearly very different from the way I would act around my mother after school, at the dinner table, and within a structured, strict home. I have had this inner conflict for a while. And we all know it probably did not get easier as high school rolled around. If you were thinking that, then YOU'D BE CORRECT!