At the moment, I am working in the IT department until noon, and I have about an hour left. I am listening to some music outside of what I bet you all think I listen to, I'm listening to some Eminem - because I have been on such a kick lately. Ever since my (step) brother came to live with me from Colorado, I have been influenced by his interest in Eminem, and thus my first love developed. I am fully aware that he is old enough to be my father, in fact, his daughter and I are almost the same age. She was born December 25, 1995, and I July of 1996, so again, not that far off.
I have always wanted to do something lyrical, or write music, or perform on stage - but to be honest, I understand that is a potentially irrational goal of mine. Those with BIG talent are the ones that make it on any stage, and the people I look up to are basically those who are trying to get big but can't make it, or those like EMINEM and Tech N9ne who have gone so big they made it to Forbes, or Rolling Stone Magazine. So... there's that. I used to let music define who I was, but I realized that was silly, so I just tune into it and relate, rather than try and live the music - you have to live first, then listen to the music, and then feel. So, there's this crazy idea that I had, and don't jump to judge me, or hold me to it. But I want to try and remember, get good, and rap some Eminem songs to help strengthen my skills & practice rapping. I have been influenced by (white) rap for a while, and I'd love to get more into it. Some folks from my hometown are aspiring rap artists, and it has been in the realm of my friends group for a minute, and I'd like to tune into that.
I want to say it is for myself and only myself, but I know I would be lying a little if I didn't say I wanted to be apart of that group of friends who can actually rap - which, yes I completely realize that is selling out to the mainstream, and I will need to do more research on the art; however, I see it as in evolutionary context. I see rap as something fantastic, and something that is highly criticized, when in reality, it is so relieving to just spit words out into a beautiful, melodic compression. I have written quite a few things in the past, about four or five full songs to online beats, but it is still a stretch before getting to be good at something like this. Artists I look up to have done this for years, successes and failures worth of attempts, so I just need to keep that in mind. I also find it as a great way to relieve majority of my stress. Confession #1 : Whenever I am upset, angry, stressed, or overwhelmed I like to play rap just because the speed, the adrenaline, and the tempo of the music is what my mind feels like at that particular time - so once I rap along to the song, with however amount of emotion I need to release, I feel ten times better than I did before. It's really great. So, there my vague or semi-description of how I wanna be a rapper wannabe, haha. My boyfriend and I will do little raps here and there to some instrumental beats on Pandora, which helps us with free-styling and quick thinking. It also is a good way to release all of those feelings I had mentioned above, but you spit whatever is really on your mind, and something thought you didn't even know you had come out of your mouth - and when it sounds good, that's a bonus. But he always tells me to keep going, even when I trip up, or slip up - it's alright - just like life, you've got to keep going.
I appreciate you all reading this. I also wanted to give you some thoughts while I'm here, actually. I have not touched the logo since the last time I mentioned it. I am just starting to get ahead of my school work, which is my main priority. This weekend I am going to be starting driving school, which I cannot be more excited about. That will be the next five Saturdays, then I have fit 12 road lessons in there somewhere. Also, I am going to be having Spring break soon, in about two weeks, so expect some posts, pictures, and videos of adventures, excitement, silliness, and shenanigans. So look out for all of thaaaaat. I know this post is a bit blah, but it IS informative, so you can't say I didn't work hard at it. I worked hard on it AT work. Oh wow, I think this is one of the few posts I have gotten paid for posting.. Haha, that's funny. Alright, again, keep tabs on the blog space, and I will do my best to do my part as long as you do part and give me feedback in the form of comments, likes, retweets, follows, or subscriptions. I'll link my stuff below for the blog space, have a great day sweet souls. ~ C'est La Vie.
I have always wanted to do something lyrical, or write music, or perform on stage - but to be honest, I understand that is a potentially irrational goal of mine. Those with BIG talent are the ones that make it on any stage, and the people I look up to are basically those who are trying to get big but can't make it, or those like EMINEM and Tech N9ne who have gone so big they made it to Forbes, or Rolling Stone Magazine. So... there's that. I used to let music define who I was, but I realized that was silly, so I just tune into it and relate, rather than try and live the music - you have to live first, then listen to the music, and then feel. So, there's this crazy idea that I had, and don't jump to judge me, or hold me to it. But I want to try and remember, get good, and rap some Eminem songs to help strengthen my skills & practice rapping. I have been influenced by (white) rap for a while, and I'd love to get more into it. Some folks from my hometown are aspiring rap artists, and it has been in the realm of my friends group for a minute, and I'd like to tune into that.
I want to say it is for myself and only myself, but I know I would be lying a little if I didn't say I wanted to be apart of that group of friends who can actually rap - which, yes I completely realize that is selling out to the mainstream, and I will need to do more research on the art; however, I see it as in evolutionary context. I see rap as something fantastic, and something that is highly criticized, when in reality, it is so relieving to just spit words out into a beautiful, melodic compression. I have written quite a few things in the past, about four or five full songs to online beats, but it is still a stretch before getting to be good at something like this. Artists I look up to have done this for years, successes and failures worth of attempts, so I just need to keep that in mind. I also find it as a great way to relieve majority of my stress. Confession #1 : Whenever I am upset, angry, stressed, or overwhelmed I like to play rap just because the speed, the adrenaline, and the tempo of the music is what my mind feels like at that particular time - so once I rap along to the song, with however amount of emotion I need to release, I feel ten times better than I did before. It's really great. So, there my vague or semi-description of how I wanna be a rapper wannabe, haha. My boyfriend and I will do little raps here and there to some instrumental beats on Pandora, which helps us with free-styling and quick thinking. It also is a good way to release all of those feelings I had mentioned above, but you spit whatever is really on your mind, and something thought you didn't even know you had come out of your mouth - and when it sounds good, that's a bonus. But he always tells me to keep going, even when I trip up, or slip up - it's alright - just like life, you've got to keep going.
I appreciate you all reading this. I also wanted to give you some thoughts while I'm here, actually. I have not touched the logo since the last time I mentioned it. I am just starting to get ahead of my school work, which is my main priority. This weekend I am going to be starting driving school, which I cannot be more excited about. That will be the next five Saturdays, then I have fit 12 road lessons in there somewhere. Also, I am going to be having Spring break soon, in about two weeks, so expect some posts, pictures, and videos of adventures, excitement, silliness, and shenanigans. So look out for all of thaaaaat. I know this post is a bit blah, but it IS informative, so you can't say I didn't work hard at it. I worked hard on it AT work. Oh wow, I think this is one of the few posts I have gotten paid for posting.. Haha, that's funny. Alright, again, keep tabs on the blog space, and I will do my best to do my part as long as you do part and give me feedback in the form of comments, likes, retweets, follows, or subscriptions. I'll link my stuff below for the blog space, have a great day sweet souls. ~ C'est La Vie.