Welcome back everybody, sorry that I have been slacking. Things are changing all over the place for me. Granted, more time away from blogging give me more to talk about, but who knows, my internet could cut out again, and I could lose all of my hard work. But, let's try to avoid that, shall we?
So, let's see. Where to begin? Well, let's start with the ends I suppose. Recently I decided to end my relationship. I am not going to explain too in depth, but to make a long story short, you need to make tough decisions in life sometimes to better yourself and your happiness. I know that sounds really mean, and fucked up to say, but it's true. I really wish that things could have been different, but I couldn't shake the consistent negative feelings. Hopefully, after some time, him and I will be able to be civil with one another and let things remain in the past as a good memory; but until then, I am doing my best to adjust to being on my own. I will admit, it has always bothered my that once you break up with someone, if you doing the "leaving" part, the other person automatically thinks you're out and living a happy life without them. Well, people who have been dumped, wake up and realize that we have emotions too! Sure, we made the decision to break it off, but we have to live with our consequences. We have sat and thought through it one million times in regards to which outcome is the better one for the both of us, even if you disagree, that is your opinion to have. I am just saying, I have always found it unfair that it is automatically assumed that I am not hurting either, because in some ways, I am. I never wanted to hurt anyone, I never wanted to go back on my word, and it was never my intention; however, when life starts to remind you that you are not happy, you need to do what you need to do in order to better yourself. Hopefully, one day he will understand.
The other end? Well, summer is coming to a close for everyone real soon, but after the longest summer of my life, I am finally returning to college for my Sophomore year tomorrow (8/23/15). I honestly am so excited to head back there. It's like living on my own. A brand new school year, a brand new start, a brand new life.
So, let's see. Where to begin? Well, let's start with the ends I suppose. Recently I decided to end my relationship. I am not going to explain too in depth, but to make a long story short, you need to make tough decisions in life sometimes to better yourself and your happiness. I know that sounds really mean, and fucked up to say, but it's true. I really wish that things could have been different, but I couldn't shake the consistent negative feelings. Hopefully, after some time, him and I will be able to be civil with one another and let things remain in the past as a good memory; but until then, I am doing my best to adjust to being on my own. I will admit, it has always bothered my that once you break up with someone, if you doing the "leaving" part, the other person automatically thinks you're out and living a happy life without them. Well, people who have been dumped, wake up and realize that we have emotions too! Sure, we made the decision to break it off, but we have to live with our consequences. We have sat and thought through it one million times in regards to which outcome is the better one for the both of us, even if you disagree, that is your opinion to have. I am just saying, I have always found it unfair that it is automatically assumed that I am not hurting either, because in some ways, I am. I never wanted to hurt anyone, I never wanted to go back on my word, and it was never my intention; however, when life starts to remind you that you are not happy, you need to do what you need to do in order to better yourself. Hopefully, one day he will understand.
The other end? Well, summer is coming to a close for everyone real soon, but after the longest summer of my life, I am finally returning to college for my Sophomore year tomorrow (8/23/15). I honestly am so excited to head back there. It's like living on my own. A brand new school year, a brand new start, a brand new life.